My Rainbow Colored Journey with the Lamas in New York City

Some time ago I left the city after living for almost ten years in Battery Park City and moved with Fred to live by the healing waters of the Atlantic Ocean in the Hamptons, the 'big waters' of great Light and healing.

I want to tell you about an experience of great transformation for me that I had some years ago. It was at the time that Fred and I were living together in Battery Park in an apartment on the water's edge. One morning I was walking through the lobby of the World Trade Center building one. When I entered the lobby I saw a group of about six or seven Lamas (Tibetan monks). They were creating a special kind of painting called 'sand painting'. I watched the Lamas as they held long instruments like long poles which they were blowing into these pipes to make painting using many different colors of sand. It looked like to me like so many different patterns of sand in all kinds of fabulous colors, like a rainbow, like a Mandala of sand.

On a side table close to them I found a printed story about sandpainting and what it means to the people and most especially to the monks of Tibet. I watched the Lamas who seemed to inhale and blow out the colored sand onto a huge table surface of about 20 x 40 feet in front of them. It looked to me like a very large blank canvas. Their work surface was set behind large glass, like walls partitioned off so that dirt, dust and people could not intefere with their work.

In the printed story they handed out the Lamas said that they would be doing their sandpainting over a period of almost a month's time. When the painting was complete, the Lamas would perform a very special ritual. Upon completion, they would physically by a sweep of hands across the painting, like the winds of time destroy their painting in a most poetic way,it was their way of ending the paintings life.

The whole experience I had with the Lamas and this painting felt to me like my breathe was taken away! The story they told on their page said that this end of the painting was done in just this way to demonstrate and show the fragility of beauty of life in this, our physical world. This Tibetan ritual was performed to remind us of the impermanence of this, our physical world that we live in and our experiencing right now. This beautiful 'illusion' that they had created over so many hours and weeks would now be destroyed in one moment of time with just one sweep of the hand.

Their story ended by saying that after the ritual was performed the sands of the painting would be collected and carefully put into a container. Then, the Lamas would walk out of the World Trade building, cross the road and take all the sand to the shore of the Hudson River. Here they would open up and empty the container releasing the sand into the flowing waters of the Hudson River.

I look back on this day as I sit here with you, and am aware how honored I was to be a part of the sand painting ritual, if only as an observer. I see the pattern of Life that is saying to me, ALL that remains at the end of our physical lives is the Love, yes the Divine Love that we each have given and received in our lives.

We, the Children of the Light are each like beautiful sand paintings. So light, so beautiful, so uniquely different, and all Divine Souls. We are part of the 'impermanance' of this world, we will all one day shift out of our energy bodies when we experience this thing called death. Then we will be instantly 'reborn' and take on our real eternal bodies, our Divine Light Bodies.

I think back now on the time of the physical events that took place on September 11, 2001. Now, I let go of all that I had seen, touched, walked through in those World Trade Buildings for so many times. It was all next to my home in Battery Park, all of that place in time is now gone! In one flash of energy, poof it no longer exists anymore.

For me, the beauty and the love of my time with the Lama, the World Trade buildings still remain in my heart and soul. To those souls who passed on that day on 9/11, we can support them with our love, light, and energy.

I remember that all the Souls now live now in the realm of God's Eternity, from which we all come from and will return to one day. I believe that we are all blessed at this time of great changes, challenges and transformation. I believe we are asked as Souls of the Divine Source to become more loving, aware, and awake beings. This call for love is one that we can consciously choose to live and be in now. This Force of Unconditional Love asks us to love with an open heart and mind and also be open to give and receive this Love more and more!

I am part of this soul family of men with you and I am forever grateful to Serve this love energy, wherever and whenever I am guided to. We are called at this time to walk together in the Light and Love of the Divine Source.

We can All shine on and on and on like in John Lennon's song lyric, like the stars, moons and the suns. Love to you from my heart and soul.

I wrote the above story soon after the events of September 11, 2001. Now, I have been asked and guided to pass it on here it to you. I am so Blessed to share it with you.

Love Always, Katrina

More Swan Love

So I'm here at the water's edge on Beaver Creek drinking my morning cup of tea with Fred. The Swan family swim to be close to us and I ask Fred to help me feed them because the three baby Swans are getting so big and hungry!

Fred goes to one side of our lawn a little away from me and starts feeding Mommy, Daddy, and one baby Swan. I try to get all 3 baby Swans to join me so I can feed the whole wheat bread to them. It's a lot easier to feed them now with Fred's help. After we finish we go back into the house so they know that their feedtime is over.

I'm inside with Fred doing some meditation and alignment work. In a little while I look outside the window and notice Papa Swan is back alone and looking for more food and there's no way I'm going to give him more food.

I look up again and see 4 white Egrets flyby and land on the small dock that belongs to the house just next to ours. I'm surprised when Fred tells me he has just spotted the Egrets flying in a group because I had never seen more than 2 Egrets together. I get out the binoculars and watch closely as the birds are cleaning and drying out their feathers. They do their thing for a little longer and then the group flies off.

I can see that Papa Swan is still here by our dock alone. I look down the Creek and suddenly spot Mama and the three baby Swans flying towards us. Mommy Swan lands close to our house and the three young ones keep on flying away!

I go in the house and find Fred and together we watch the Mommy swim up close to her mate. They are alone for the first time in a long time. They look to me to be so much in harmony and peace. I stand close to Fred and tell him that this is the first time since the young Swans have been born that the parent swans are alone, a couple again. I feel inside of me a rush of energy knowing that now Mommy and Papa swan are free again! I tell Fred that I have to go out and be with them to celebrate their new freedom.

For me, I feel assured that I've just witnessed a rite of passage of Nature. Both swans had to let their babies go. I bring them one more piece of bread feeding them off our dock again. I say to my swan friends what great parents they've been, and tell them out loud that they are free!

I say goodbye and go inside, and with Fred, watch them as they swim close to each other in such harmony. Fred comments that we first watched them mate in front of us on the water here in early spring. Months later, they brought their babies to us on the first day they were born, all 7 of them. Sadly, only 3 survived. Such are the ways of Nature and now today Mommy and Papa released them today to go on and be free in their young swan lives.

They have shared it all with us and I feel so blessed with such a gift from allowing us to be a part of their lives in such beautiful and intimate ways. A little later, I watch out the window as they both swim off. Then, I see the 3 young swans are back with them looking for food again.

The 'rite of passage of Nature' for me is such a beautiful and blessed gift to us all in this world! I love you always, blessings of Peace and Love.
Katrina

Fawn Magic

Somewhere in horse country in New Jersey, Fred and I found a wonderful car to replace our old tired car. It was with a bit of sadness that I stood over our own dear Buick that Fred's mother had passed on to us a few years ago.

So there I was outside the car mechanics shop, saying a prayer of goodbye. I raised my hands and blessed this sweet old vehicle, thanking her for such a good job of taking Fred and I wherever we needed to go. Then I told Fawn that she had also been a great traveling companion for Fred's mom and dad. I sensed a peace come over me and a kind of release before walking away. I touched her hood giving her my love and goodbye.

Now it's time to get ready for our new car that Fred discovered on a bike ride he took about 2 weeks ago. On his bike ride, he himself in front of an old Buick dealership. He saw in the window a few antique cars on the floor. But what had really made him stop was a car he spotted parked outside, a beautiful gleaming older Mercedes with a 'for sale' small sign pasted on the side window. Fred took time to get a better look at this beautiful car. Later on Fred told me he had thoughts like maybe this car owner would be interested in some kind of a trade.

A few years ago, Fred owned an older Mercedes similar to this one. It was also this type of Mercedes I drove by accident into our house in the Hamptons. Oops, feeling nervous as a new driver I stepped on the gas pedal, not the brake.

So after the last Mercedes that I totalled, I never dreamt of having another older car like this in my life again. A few days later, Fred took me to see the car and when I first saw the car, I could definitely understand why he was so drawn to it. I felt this was a beautiful and elegant car, so we took a test drive with her.

I was surprised that I felt such strong energy about the car. The owner spoke on the phone with Fred a few days later and had a good feeling they would work something out. Fred made the deal the following Saturday, and drove her back to our friends house. After driving the car for a few days, Fred said how whole and right the car felt.

A few days later, Fred was looking through the cars papers and noticed that Mercedes name for this champagne color was Fawn. Upon hearing this discovery, I said to him let's call her Fawn, it's the perfect name for her. Then, I remembered our friends address is on Deer Path, and by some coincidence we lived on Deer Ridge Trail in the Hamptons when we had the other Mercedes.

I remembered how very often we had deer sightings when we lived there. Our house was built right next to a deer path, that they often walked on. Now I flashed back to a few days ago when I was in the kitchen of our friends house looking out the window and the garden outside. Suddenly, I saw a large adult deer munching on the flowers in the garden just a few feet away from me. I looked out the window, I then spotted 2 baby deer coming close to their Mommy, and now all three are snacking on the flowers in the garden.

I called out to and now together in amazement, we watched the deer family having a wonderful time eating all the flowers. A few minutes later, Mommy deer walked away and to our surprise the baby deers stayed on chomping and chewing away.

I stood very still and quiet with Fred and watched, I've seen deer close to our home on Deer Ridge Trail. The two baby deers strolled away to stand in the shade of a small tree next to the garden. The two of these amazingly beautiful fawns were now standing about 10-12 feet away from our new Fawn car. Then, they walked closer to our car stopping to eat some grass and in time wandered away into the woods to join their Mommy.

Later in the day I shared with Fred that it felt to me that our car Fawn was being 'fawned' by these gentle and beautiful baby deer. Fred and I had stayed in the kitchen window watching our deers for at least an hour. I sensed we were receiving a Great Blessing by nature.

Before some landscape people came and the lawn mowers noise scared them off. I managed to take a few photos of the baby deer sitting on the ground and eating the leaves under the small tree.

I sit here with you and feel so close to you and my deer family and in touch with their gentleness and perfect beauty. For me the deer visit was a sign and a great blessing for us and our new family car friend 'Fawn'. I believe that Nature and God brought to Fred and I our car Fawn that has the energy of such great beauty.

I'll see you soon, Love and Light always
Katrina

A city kid goes tubing

A few days ago I was with a dear friend and we talked about going tubing on a little creek closeby. This tubing thing is new to me. My tubing and nature loving friend Bill decided to bring along his big black Labrador dog who has been used to being in water a lot.

Fred drove us off to the launch site and after a minutes of preparation, we're ready. Then I kiss Fred goodbye. My friend and I are off!It takes me a little time to get myself into the tube and get comfortable. Before we left, I told my friend that I only wanted to take a short ride. It just felt right for me to take it a bit slow the first time out.

So Away we go tubing along with his Lab swimming dog. His dog often walks along the shoreline close to us. I notice that the river's current is running very fast. My friend remarked that it's very unusual for the current to be so strong. I hear him but I'm not at all worried. As we float down the rapids I'm feeling happy and safe sitting in my tube. The sun is shining,it's a beautiful summer day with my friend and his dog. My river companion tells me that he's sure we'll make great time on the creek and get to where his car is parked in about a hour.

It's just about an hour later when we reach the launch. I feel relieved until he tells me that we have to go to the next launch which he says isn't far away. Time passes and there's no launch in sight. His black Lab now has to swim a lot because there's no reachable land on either side of us. The banks of the creek here are 7 to 8 feet high and rise straight up making it almost impossible to get out of the water. It feels like We just go on and on. I can see his dog getting more and more tired and looks like he's panting at the time. It worries me to see his dog struggling to keep up with us.The launch is nowhere in sight, yikes! I feel like I'm 'stuck'in my tube. The currents running very fast and now the water's too deep to stand or walk in.

My friends dog is acting strange, panting harder and harder as he struggles to stay above the water. I see my friend has been pulled by his dog out the water, somehow managing to pull my friends water shoe off. The dog seems happy to be out of the water. Then he runs away with the shoe. Now We laugh together about how crazy and funny his dog is acting. After a little later we go float down river. Suddenly his dog pulls his tube away from him and swims again back onto shore and has pulled the tube out of the creek. My friend wrestles the tube out of his dog's mouth. We laugh together about what a crazy dog he is.

Now the current speeds up,the creek banks are too high to get out. The dog has to swim harder to stay afloat and he's panting and struggling to stay above the waterline. I start to move ahead a bit, the current takes me. My friend seems to be having a tug of war with his dog whose trying to get the tube away from my friend. I laugh as I look back watching the dog and my friend together.

The current takes me further along. I'm okay knowing my friend will catch up with me soon. I keep trying to slow down and tube back to my friend, I can't seem to be able to slow down. The current has speeded up and I'm moving so fast that I've completely lost sight of my friend. It feels like about an hour has gone by and I haven't seen my friend or his dog. Now I start to think that finding him is a long shot.

The sun's going down and I've come to a slow part of the creeks flow. It's getting darker, there's no people, no houses, and most of all no launch in sight. Now the creek speeds up again, taking many twists and turns over and over. I keep looking for the launch site and meanwhile it's getting darker and darker. It's at this moment that I realize I'm lost and alone. Fear starts taking over my mind and body, now I feel really trapped in this tube.

It's so dark, I can hardly see in front of me. I remember my friend telling me that near the launch site was a big highway. I'm praying that I will hear the sounds of cars driving on the highway. No such luck, I can only hear the sounds of fast moving currents. I start to pray and call out to my Master Teacher's and God, please help me.

I look up and see the bright clear moon coming out. Then, I look down and see some big trees that have fallen across the creek blocking my tube to get by. Somehow, I manage to swim to the side of the creek. I pull my tube out, then climb over the fallen trees. I am only wearing a bathing suit and short sleeve top. My legs are completely exposed, thank God I still have my water shoes on.

Back into the water, I sit down in my tube again. With all of my being, I know that I must get out of this creek. Now, when the current slows down, I have to use my arms as paddles to keep me moving along. I'm so tired and waves of fear and anger are taking over me. I yell out loud for help to my friend Bill. Hey, where are you? How could you have messed it up so bad?

Silence is the only answer I hear to my cries for help. I can hear only my own voice. I sink lower into my tube and start to silently pray, and call on my Master Teachers and Guides for help. I ask them to tell what to do. It's almost completely dark now. I want to get out of this tube so bad. Suddenly, I hear my Master Teachers tell me to stay in the creek. I'm told that it's not time yet. I listen to sounds that I think could be coming from a highway. Thank God! Maybe, I'm getting closer to finding a way out of here.

Time passes and I'm still waiting to hear from my Master Teacher's to find out when I can get out of my tube. I hear something and suddenly see a very big fish that jumps out of the water very close to me. I'm startled to see such a big fish. I sense the fish is just as surprised to see me so close. The fish swims away jumping in and out of the water all the time, making lots of noise.

That's it, I hear their voices telling me to go. It's the sign, it's what I've been waiting for. I can feel my Master Teacher's guiding me to get out of the water right now! I listen and paddle to the banks of the creek and start pulling the tube behind me. I'm on land! Now I have to get into the woods. I try to pull myself out, but I keep slipping back into the water because the bank of creek is about 7 feet of muddy, yukky stuff.

I cry out to my Masters for help and after many minutes of climbing and then sliding back into the water. I'm finally able to get back up onto land. For some reason, I refuse to leave the tube. It's been my saving life-line all the way in this crazy surreal tubing adventure. When I stand up, I can hear the sounds of cars speeding on a highway. Now, I can see straight in front of me through the thick wooded trees a slight flicker of car lights speeding along the road.

At last I can get help. I try to walk but I'm caught in high weeds and brambles. I think to use the tube as a shield to help protect my legs, and help me escape from here. The tube is very heavy, my arms are aching because they've been my paddles for hours. Covered in mud, the weeds sting and hurt my legs and arms, feels like little razor blades cutting my legs all over. I don't care anymore how badly my legs and arms hurt. I just have to get to the road. Maybe I can flag down a car and someone will help me get home to Fred.

As I get close to the highway, I can see flashlights shining. My first thought is that someone had car trouble or some kind of car accident occurred. I feel a surge of energy, I wave and yell 'hey I'm here'. The flashlights are on me now and I see 4 or 5 men looking towards me. I can make out that they are all policemen. I hear them speaking on walkie talkies saying out loud 'we've found the female'. The policeman tells me not to move, he's coming down. There's another policeman following behind, they attempt to throw me a rope but I tell them that I don't want the rope. A big burly policeman gives me his hand. I'm still dragging behind me the silly tube and one policeman man tells me to let the tube go.

His next question was asking me where my friend is? Right away I answer him that we got separated in the creek hours ago. I told him that my friend's dog was in big trouble struggling to stay above the waterline. I told him that I was sure my friend was safe because he had years of experience tubing on the this creek and others. It's just at this moment that I feel myself getting pulled up by the strength of the angel policeman. I see an ambulance right in front of me. I can see a whole group of rescue workers and one of them guides me into the ambulance. The ambulance crew asks me right away if they can take me to the hospital. I answer them with a definite no, telling them that even though I'm scratched up badly, I'm really okay. As I sit in the ambulance, one of the crew tells me they have to check-out my vital signs. I agree, and then someone gives me a few towels to put on my burning legs and arms. As the crew is checking me out, I'm told that my husband is on the way. I chime in right away, no, Fred's not my husband, he's my life partner. They go and tell me he's the one who called the police. One of the medical team members tells me that my vitals signs are good. Right now, they are concerned with my my blood pressure, which at the moment is very high. So we have to wait, and then they'll check me out again in a little while. One of them says that we're going away to some holding place. When I hear their plan, I ask them if we can please wait for a few minutes more because Fred's on the way.

About a minute later, a State Trooper comes into the ambulance, and right behind I see Fred. Fred smiles and kisses me. I tell him that I'm fine. One of the medics comes over to me and starts checking my vitals again. I hear them discussing my blood pressure is normal now. I'm asked to sign a release form stating that I refused to be taken to the hospital. I signed the papers happily and thanked them all for the great job they have done for me.

Fred slowly leads me out of the ambulance and takes my hand. Fred leads me down the steps which are very high off the ground. My legs are so sore, I feel weak on my feet, I almost fall down the steps. Fred steadies me, and helps me into the car.

As we start to drive home, I'm aware that I'm in some kind of shock. I feel a little numb all over and a bit dopey. Fred drives on telling me the story of how he became worried about me around 5:30PM when me and my friend hadn't arrived at the launch site at the time we agreed on. He said he just knew for sure something was very wrong. He tried calling on my cell, but just then his cell went dead, so he drove home to recharge the phone. It's then he started to call the police and organize a search party to find us.

He went on to tell me that the search party grew to almost forty people including local and state police, volunteers, kayak and canoe rescue teams, and even a helicopter. Some of the rescue teams were walking in the woods on foot searching for us. Fred said they were all prepared to search for us through the night or until they us.

Wow. I never thought Fred would worry about me like this. I just figured he would be working all afternoon on his computer. I was very surprised to hear how strongly he got the energy that I was in trouble and in danger. Fred's intuitive sense never ceases to amaze me.

I sit quietly now next to Fred as we head on home. I think about what he's been telling me, and how Blessed I am to have such a sensitive, intuitive partner who helped save my life. Fred is such a soul, so awake and aware, and in telepathic connection and communication with me! Fred's the reason why I got help so soon, and he's the one who found my friend Bill and his dog. He found them just as they were about to come out of the woods, nearby where we took off on our tubing expedition.

Fred said Bill and his dog both were very shook-up and exhausted, but okay. I was so relieved, happy to hear they were safely at home. I remember as I am now in the shower at home, I very gently wash off my legs and the rest of my body that on that dark creek I was told by my Master Teacher's that I had a very important Life Purpose to live and complete. They made it clear to me that it wasn't my time to leave my body.

The days after this life altering experience, I have been in touch with an understanding that I am free and alive! I am really at home with my Divine Soul and my love, soul partner Fred.

Now, I have the time to live the Divine Plan and Purpose of my life with an even greater depth of understanding and clarity and committment to Serve.

I thank you my Master Teachers for your great Love, Guidance, protection and your Divine Deliverance.

Victory to the Light! I love you all, om shanti, shanti, shanti, Victory to the Light!