Looking for Love

I feel often the challenges of my Soul to love.
Living for me with an open heart not an easy thing to DO.
Seeing as a Soul the pain and chaos that Souls go through, that I go through.

Wondering how to keep on loving?

For me Katrina I always am helped and guided
      the Way back to Love by my Master Teacher's.
It is always a Choice for me to stay in the Light and Love Energies.
I know now that
            Only Love is Real.

Being more loving to myself and others is a Choice I am challenged to make everyday.

So I chose today to share my loving heart with
     Souls who are open to receive the

     Divine Love that flows in and through me.

Like I said in the beginning of my sharing
        Love is a Choice,
        A Way to live moment to moment........

        Love  Light to you dear Souls        
                Katrina

Suicide Check In or Check Out from Katrina

Want to share a bit about Death and Dying.
My Spiritual Training has taught me that as Souls we
Choose when we take on a
physical body, then when Soul we drop off our body and leave this Dimension.

                                              We are ALL here to learn to love ourselves.
Here to Love other Souls we meet on our Life Journey.
Souls that are Eternal, going on and on, from one lifetime to another.
Very often changing our sex forms, living either a Lifetime as a man or a woman.
Learning, when we are ready, to Love Unconditionally.
It's for sure part of the answer to the Big Question?
                               Why Am I Here?
In this time of super media, we see now many stories of high profile personalities suicides.
Often our reactions to Suicide is of being shocked, then wondering why?
I have been taught in my Spiritual studies that each Soul choses
        what lessons to learn, lessons to work on.
I Am a Free Soul
A Soul of Free Will and I get to choose if I want to learn a Life lesson or not.
The pulls of our Ego/Personality are very strong. Often creating much pain and suffering in our lives.
It can make us feel like we are not comfortable in our own skin, with no chance of experiencing any Sense of Peace or Well Being.
How do we get out of the seeming Hell we created in our Lives?
If we call out and ask our Teachers for help they will always answer.
Our Master Teachers will step in only when we ask, only when we are Soul ready.
In my lifetime, I been very challenged to learn to Love, my biggest challenge has been to love Katrina.
Twice in this lifetime I have attempted to end my life. Twice I have been refused by my Master Teachers when I asked them to let me go out of my body.
My Master Teacher insisted on try #2 that I stay in body in order to heal Katrina.
They told me during my Journey time in the Light Tunnel, they had a plan for me.
The Plan to Serve/Help others, working with Souls who are also experiencing great Soul Pain.
Souls experiencing a Crisis of the Soul, like me.
I was supported and shown how to heal Katrina.
Their 24/7 help and Guidance slowly healed me, enough to be in the Light.
.
When I hitting "my bottom" there was only one way for me to go..............
                                           UP !
From my suicides attempts, I learned that there is No Escape!
I Am Katrina, writing to let you know that there is another way.
         I have journeyed out of my Dark Night
                                       of my Soul out into
                                       the Light Side of Love.
I ask anyone who reads my sharing, to take Time
                     to meditate
                     reflect about your thoughts, your ideas of your
                     Living or Dying..
My own Masters Teach have shown me that on the Wheel of Life,
                     if I choose to end my Life
I will come back in body in another lifetime to learn my Life lessons ALL over again.
That "new" lifetime will have all the same pains, challenges and sufferings.
In the Light Tunnel Journey Time, I was getting, Understanding
               the  Higher Wisdom Truth of Reincarnation.
So I decided to stay in my body, going back to my life to heal myself.
Having now the Focus to help other Souls when asked..
My Teachers did deliver me out of my Soul Dark Night to the Light.
Of course, I needed much time of therapy and meditation to heal myself.
So here and Now
             I ask you to please
             Choose wisely my Soul Friends if you are in
Soul pain with suicidal thoughts.
If? this is not about you**
               I am most happy for that!
If not you??
         than whoever you know,
        whoever you are close to who
a Soul that is experiencing dark, death, suicidal thoughts,
    Please**
        reach out 
      let them know **they are not alone**
      that you are there for them.
Let them know you want to help in whatever ways you can.
Helping another Soul is the Highest form of Service.
                           if??  a Soul is open and ready..
Soul to Soul we are ALL connected by the Divine Force of Love.
Living in Soul Eternity right now.
    Living on and on and on.....
I Am Here to give my support,Soul Service.
You can reach out to me, contacting me if Guided.
        email:   katfortuna@gmail.com

         I bid you Peace♡♡  Love, Light  Katrina

Love, Amore - An Italian Journey

My recent journey back home to Italia, gave me some real 'live, in living color' understanding of the meaning of the word love.

In Vicenza, Italia, my daughter, Francesca lives with her husband Giovanni and their two children, Riccardo (8yrs old) and Maria Cristina(2yrs old).  Francesca had left the world of New York City, Greenwich Village where  raised to go back to the town of Vicenza t, where she was born.

Letting her go was so very hard to do, but the spiritual way, of loving and letting go was a Truth that I had to follow with her again.  

I flew to Venezia and from there it's only 45 minutes by car to Vicenza. 

I was excited and yet not sure how it would be/feel for me to with Francesca, the family,and friends again. Almost two years had gone by since my last visit and this time I was to stay at the family villa which I had sold with my Italian relatives when my husband and his mother and father had passed away some years ago. Francesca and her husband had recently bought the villa back and beautifully restored.

This villa was the only home I ever had with husband Francesco, Francesca and Mama,Papa. They had passed out of body many years ago, and here I am going back 'home' again. I now have the children in my arms, loving and kissing me.  I am happy to be 'home' at last.

The first night I slept in the villa I woke-up suddenly around 3PM. I felt a pull of Energy calling me to go to the large salon living room, which was always my most favorite room in the villa.

When I came into the large room with panorama windows, I just stood there in this room that has the most incredible Italian countryside view. 

I stood and opened my arms wide, and called out loud to Francesco, Mama and Papa.

               I am here now.

               I am home.

I then waited to 'hear' or sense their response, answer to my call.

In a few minutes, I felt a great wave, likes warm waves of Unconditional Love bathing over my body from head to toe. I felt them close to me. And then I heard in my inner Soul space them saying to me 'yes you are here Katrina and we are so happy that  you are 'home' at last!

Now it felt to me that my love for Francesco, Mama and Papa had come full circle.

I felt more complete, that this connecting with them right here had given us all another deep level of Soul closure. It was a way for the three of us and Francesca to be more Soul Free. Free from whatever Karmic ties of this lifetime and perhaps other lifetimes had held us.

My prayers that I had in my heart for so many years felt to me to be answered.

We are All Free at last to love and move on with our lives.

                                                                                      Love to you all . . . Katrina

Saying Hello and Goodbye

Dear Friends, I just recently made another trip down to Maryland to be part of a final send off for my brother Bill who just passed on to his new life in Spirit.

In a way I dreaded the idea of making this trip. I guess because in my heart I had made my peace
with him on my last visit a few weeks before. But in my meditations, my Master Teacher's had
made it very clear to me of the importance of my trip and to expect something
of spiritual importance to take place for me there.

Upon arriving at Bill's home, my sweet friend Eileen, Bill's English wife came towards me as I walked into their house. She greeted me with a loving voice and my heart felt happy to see her face again.
Standing there I also knew I was present to honor Bill and give Eileen love.

Sitting now in the front pew of the Church, I am starting to experience waves of Peaceful Energy
even as Bill's coffin is being brought down the aisle draped in the American flag, Bill had served in three wars:
                                                World War 11, Korea and Vietnam.

I realized as I watched his coffin being escorted by four men in velvet capes,white feather plums in their hats, swords at their sides, that Bill was also a Knight of Columbus and the knights came to honor and give a formal send-off to their fellow knight, Bill.

After the service began, I hear loving prayers being prayed for Bill, then member's of the family come forward to talk about their father, who was also a great friend to many.
In this Church Bill's will leave and go on his last Earth bound journey to the place he had chosen to rest.
Most importantly he has been re-born in his Soul's true spiritual body.

I looked over my shoulder during the service and saw my other brother,David sitting there looking so sad
and often crying.
Seeing him like this only increased the Energies of Love and Compassion in me. Brother David was a person in my life, I've always felt a bit distant and not really connected to.. I know we both had many reasons why we did not speak or see each other for a long,long time. Last time I remember seeing him was at my mother's funeral many moons ago.

Sitting here in this Church I am amazed with the feelings I'm experiencing maybe for the first time in my life of real love and compassion flowing from me to David.

For sure some kind of a healing miracles has happened here today for me. I hear now the voice of the the Priest who out loud says a prayer,then ending by asking us all to share the Peace of God with the person/person's that may be close to us.
At this moment I feel a strong pull to get out of my pew and go over to David. When I get close to him, I put my arms around him,gently give him a hug.

For me I can say in this moment it's a time of  Redemption for me.
In some way it's a new beginning with him and other Souls in my life, a time I can express and share deeper levels of Unconditional Love with all souls.
I see it as a Crisis of Opportunity to open my heart, give and let myself be open to become a more
unconditionally loving Child of God.

Several months ago, I was invited by my Master Teacher's in one of my meditations, to work on healing my relationship issues with all of my four brother's.
Clearly it was time for me to say yes to what I was being asked to do.
This invitation to do this particular healing work them came to me months before
I was ever given notice of Bill's grave physical condition.

At the time it seemed a bit crazy to me to be given this healing/working assignment.
It's not until now when I'm sitting in this Church and seeing/feeling the pain of David than I can hear in my Soul his call for love.
I am experiencing new levels of crystal clarity of why I'm here and it's all about my healing and others.

Memories cross my mind of the last time I saw Bill alive and the new levels in my life of some kind of  peace  that I finally came to have with him..
Before saying goodbye I gifted him and Eileen a copy of my book   Don't Let Me Drift Too Far
and shared with them pictures in the book of me during different times in my life's healing journey's.

Later when driving away with Fred, I was very much in-touch with a sense of deep relief and feeling  free from my past. There is still a lot more healing to be put in place with my relationships, especially with my brother's. I wish that all the relationships in my life were in a complete state of wholeness, and healed.
But the reality is that I'm in a process that goes on in this lifetime of mine. I must trust that whatever healing possible for me to process will take place.

Dear friends, today I want to Celebrate the great gifts of healing I've had in my life up until today.
Perhaps this helps to shine more Light on a great spiritual Truth that the healing I have experienced during
my crisis of opportunity comes directly from the force of the Love Energy of the Divine.

My story is the same story for all Souls here in body, who can choose to heal their lives by the opening
of one's heart and mind to the Force of the Divine that's always Present and available to work
with us in our lives.

I share with you love of my Soul to your Soul
                                                     always, Katrina

Loving & Letting Go

I write you celebrating today this Friday the 13th of May, 2011
I love the number 13, it's always been an auspicious Energy Number for me.

In these days I've had strange feelings and pulls about detaching with the ones I love.
For sure it's not easy to do,
It's about me learning to let go of the people I love, no matter who they are because as Souls they do not 'belong' to me or anyone else.

I am finding on my soul's journey that it takes great courage,with deep levels of commitment
to live in ways of loving detachment.

In my human mind I may think that these pulls of attachment are about the other person.
But I've come to understand in my life that it's really about me.

Many Eastern Higher Wisdom Paths teach the Truth that the Pain one experiences in life often comes from  resisting what is and not allowing oneself to accept oneself or what another soul may be or doing in their life at the time.

This Truth, I am asked to apply and work with in All of my relationships.

Only by using the application and tools I've been taught in my spiritual practices, especially
the practice of meditation,will I find the Ways of realizing more understanding and pathways to Peace.

When I experience Peace then I will also experience real Soul clarity.
It's from this spiritual space, I can see clearly the Light of the Divine shining in my soul and
shining in all other soul's I meet by Divine Assignments in my life.

The Purpose of my life I know is to bring more Light into my life and all my relationships.
I am only here to learn how to love myself and all other's unconditionally.

                                       Love and blessings to you      Katrina

I'll be 'live' at the Psychic & Holistic Fair at Gurney's Inn, Montauk New York April 16

Dear Friends,
I will be a featured Psychic at Gurney's Inn  Psychic & Holistic Fair, Saturday April 16, 10am to 5pm.

Recently at Gurney's I spent some time swimming in their sea water pool overlooking the ocean and
it's here i have been able to tap into deeper levels of relaxing my body/mind/soul.

I love all the natural beauty of being in a beautiful space on the ocean like Gurney's.

This Saturday, throughout the day I will be giving channeled readings, answering your questions on relationships,career always with the focus of being of Service to you and being on a journey with  you of discovering ways of experiencing new channels of mind/body/soul healing.

I know it will an exciting day, with many different levels of Psychic/Paranormal Energy life affirming experiences.

I am always open to Serve, as I know All our meetings are always by Divine Appointment.
                                                       Blessings of Light/Love to you all    Katrina

On the Road to Soul Vision

Blank spaces, open space, pre-spring time for deeper levels of Inner subjective work and healing.

I need to 'see' more clearly where,what I am as a Soul to do
My heart desires to find out more about my Soul's Purpose while I'm here in my body which
lives in the Hampton's, by the water's edge.

In my life's journey time, I've always been attracted to living on the 'edge'of new discoveries,new ways to create, think and be.

This is a time in a special way for a, Renaissance of the Soul, discovering new levels of
understanding,clarity and self-healing.

Today I feel more ready to open my heart and mind-self,looking to embrace who I really am.
I am a Soul here to experience new levels of Unconditional Love and Soul healing. The Divine asks me to
let go of fears,doubts and negative thoughts and feelings.

I desire to live consciously in more Light and Love, expanding my Soul into new channels of this Love that's always flowing out to me and you.
The Purpose to receive Love and share it with other Souls.

Blessings of Light/Love         Katrina